Today started off roughly. Woke up still tired, dropped my phone and shattered the screen, and was reminded again that I have no money and no job yet. So I have been living the life of a bum... asking, humbly, for help from others because without a job, I can't help myself just yet. And as the day went on, I just got more and more down.
Until I decided not to let this get me down. And I reminded myself why I did this in the first place. And I compiled a list of things I am thankful for.
* Friends that are willing to help me
* Family that loves me
* A wonderful sweet man that I know and is willing to put up with a bum of a girlfriend
* An education so I can find a job, eventually
The list was very long and some really silly things were on it, so I won't list the whole thing off. You can thank me later for not listing that I am thankful I have toes. Desperate days call on desperate reasons to be thankful!
Then I stumbled upon a blog http://www.allisonvesterfelt.com/ and an article on huffinton post http://www.huffingtonpost.com/allison-vesterfelt-/this-is-what-it-looks-lik_b_4150611.html?1382551286&ncid=edlinkusaolp00000009 (sorry I don't know how to post just titles yet... working on it!)
It reminded me that following dreams isn't always pretty roses and happy times. I have been on the other side and observed how someone else's life seems so awesome and they are doing all these cool things with their lives, yet very rarely do you see the other side to it: the jobless days, the eating ramen noodles every night because you can't afford anything else, the needing to ask for help.
But I know why I did this: to follow my own dreams of moving north, being with Kevin, changing myelf and my career, and enjoying my life. Sure, it's not easy, but by god it sure is worth it. =)
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Thursday, October 17, 2013
“I met a guy who had an interesting job. He was a meat cutter, or a meat slicer, something like that. I probably butchered his job title. ”
More job searching today. Seeing as it is taking a loooong time to hear back from the interview I had last week, I think 8 days is a bit too long to wait just to shadow. Not even to wait for them to say I have the job, but to shadow?! Redonkulous.
So the manontany of job searching, resume tweaking, and cover letter writing continues. I have come across a couple of times people saying this: (now picture a fat balding man, sweating in his suite that is a size too small, his third chin dangling over his shirt collar. He throws back his head with a smirk while looking at my resume, sweat beads trickling a little to the side from the motion, and his voice booming in a southern accent) "Well, Ashley, why on earth would you apply for ______ position when you have a Master's degree? Don't you want to do something in your field or that pays extremely well? Isn't it a little silly to send such an over qualified resume to this position?" I like to throw that image to you because it's how I feel when people say this, like I am being bullied into a mold of what I should be looking for and what I actually am looking for.
Ugh. I hate looking for a job.
I am finding myself missing the days of when I would wake up and have a routine. I thought for a while when I quit my old job I would enjoy the life of a drifter, a nomad. A life where I didn't have to stick it to the man because there was no man! And I would be free to do and go where I please, not weighted down by the cooperate world and the responsibilities of being a professional adult! I would travel the world in a beat up old van, living off a small amount of money for food, sleeping in a tent, and discovering the world as I wanted to do! YEAH!
Then I woke up two days later and realized, I have a house, a car, no job, and 4 animals. That nomad life ain't happenin' girly girl.
However, I am hopeful that I will find something soon. I mean, if I apply to ever single job in Madison, surely someone will feel sorry enough to hire me? Right? At least I am putting myself out there.
Le sigh.
I have to say that it is a good thing I LOVE this city and have great people in my life helping me. Because if I had done all this without them and not liking the city, I would be screwed. I may be broke as a joke, unemployed, uninsured, and homeless, but by golly, I am happy!
I am also turning into a clean freak. By that I mean I am so freaking bored that I am cleaning other people's houses FOR THE FUN OF IT. Yeah, you read that right my friends. FOR FUN! Now, if you knew back in the day you would think A) i'm sick or 2) I've lost my mind or III) I have been possessed by cleaning aliens who want to rid the world of all that is clutter. Albeit, since owning my own home and having some snarky comments from people in the past about my living conditions (to which I would reply in my mind "Hey guys, I'm a single gal who lives alone... I do what I want!"), I have significantly changes my ways, the following has also occurred recently: selling my home and living in others peoples home and being unemployed. All three of these events have led me to become The clutter eater! I am telling you, i you ever want to force yourself to become a cleaner person, have all three of these events happen in a 4 month span. BOOM! Instant cleaner upper. Actually, I find cleaning to be very cathartic. I am an instant gratification type of gal, so there is something about vacuuming up a rug and seeing it instantly become clean. It's almost like a drug! HAH!
Ok, I have procrastinated long enough. I must get back to the hunt for employment.
So the manontany of job searching, resume tweaking, and cover letter writing continues. I have come across a couple of times people saying this: (now picture a fat balding man, sweating in his suite that is a size too small, his third chin dangling over his shirt collar. He throws back his head with a smirk while looking at my resume, sweat beads trickling a little to the side from the motion, and his voice booming in a southern accent) "Well, Ashley, why on earth would you apply for ______ position when you have a Master's degree? Don't you want to do something in your field or that pays extremely well? Isn't it a little silly to send such an over qualified resume to this position?" I like to throw that image to you because it's how I feel when people say this, like I am being bullied into a mold of what I should be looking for and what I actually am looking for.
Ugh. I hate looking for a job.
I am finding myself missing the days of when I would wake up and have a routine. I thought for a while when I quit my old job I would enjoy the life of a drifter, a nomad. A life where I didn't have to stick it to the man because there was no man! And I would be free to do and go where I please, not weighted down by the cooperate world and the responsibilities of being a professional adult! I would travel the world in a beat up old van, living off a small amount of money for food, sleeping in a tent, and discovering the world as I wanted to do! YEAH!
Then I woke up two days later and realized, I have a house, a car, no job, and 4 animals. That nomad life ain't happenin' girly girl.
However, I am hopeful that I will find something soon. I mean, if I apply to ever single job in Madison, surely someone will feel sorry enough to hire me? Right? At least I am putting myself out there.
Le sigh.
I have to say that it is a good thing I LOVE this city and have great people in my life helping me. Because if I had done all this without them and not liking the city, I would be screwed. I may be broke as a joke, unemployed, uninsured, and homeless, but by golly, I am happy!
I am also turning into a clean freak. By that I mean I am so freaking bored that I am cleaning other people's houses FOR THE FUN OF IT. Yeah, you read that right my friends. FOR FUN! Now, if you knew back in the day you would think A) i'm sick or 2) I've lost my mind or III) I have been possessed by cleaning aliens who want to rid the world of all that is clutter. Albeit, since owning my own home and having some snarky comments from people in the past about my living conditions (to which I would reply in my mind "Hey guys, I'm a single gal who lives alone... I do what I want!"), I have significantly changes my ways, the following has also occurred recently: selling my home and living in others peoples home and being unemployed. All three of these events have led me to become The clutter eater! I am telling you, i you ever want to force yourself to become a cleaner person, have all three of these events happen in a 4 month span. BOOM! Instant cleaner upper. Actually, I find cleaning to be very cathartic. I am an instant gratification type of gal, so there is something about vacuuming up a rug and seeing it instantly become clean. It's almost like a drug! HAH!
Ok, I have procrastinated long enough. I must get back to the hunt for employment.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Twas the night before a cold...
And all through my body
My head was stuffy
And my nose really snotty.
Ugh.
But my poor sweetie had it worse. We were a sad sight to behold. What was supposed to be a leisurely afternoon of thrift shopping and looking at houses on the east side, turned into grabbing a quick bite to eat and then laying on the couch for the rest of the night. Then my roomies texted me saying their puppy was also coughing. Guess it's that time of year. Hoping rest and lots of tea will help.
The only issue with rest is that I restarted insanity asylum and have been doing well and eating much better, so I have lost a pound or so (yay!). However, I don't want to rest because I'm on a roll!! :-( I tried working out yesterday and couldn't muster the energy. But I will listen to my body and just focus on healthy eating until this cold goes away. Le sigh.
Also still waiting on a call back from the job. I am getting super antsy about not having a job. And I wonder if it is bad for me to email the HR explaining how I am really interested in working there however due to financial restrictions, I can't wait too long for confirmation. I will give it to the end of the week.
That is all for now folks. Until next time, I leave you some pics of fall in Madison courtesy of my sweetie.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
And so it begins...
Howdy y'all! If you are reading this blog it is because we are friends and or related.... or possibly just stumbled upon it via the world wide web. Do people even refer to internet land as the world wide web anymore?
Anyhoo!
I am starting this blog as a way for my family and friends in TN can keep up with my shenanigans here in the great state of Wisconsin!! The land of cheese and cheese heads, and lots of snow. Well no snow yet, but I know it's coming. Hold on to your hats, ladies and gents, I am about to be introduced to what a "real" winter is like!
So, just as a quick start, as I don't have much time right now, I have been in Madison for a whole week and a day! Whew!! Still seems like a vacation since I am unemployed, and surreal that I am actually here for good, but I am so glad I came! It is cool and crisp and colorful. Perfect fall weather. :) I am on the hunt for jobs and am hopeful I will find something soon. I do NOT, I repeat, do NOT, like being unemployed. I am the kind of gal who needs to have purpose, goals, and something to doooooo. I am not good at being lazy. (-_-) This has been a very odd experience being unemployed like this, but it will make me appreciate my next job and money! Good thing my sweetheart is employed and willing to help out his broke lady. I will repay him someday.
Well, I must bid you adieu, and get out of here. I have a date with a very special man.
Anyhoo!
I am starting this blog as a way for my family and friends in TN can keep up with my shenanigans here in the great state of Wisconsin!! The land of cheese and cheese heads, and lots of snow. Well no snow yet, but I know it's coming. Hold on to your hats, ladies and gents, I am about to be introduced to what a "real" winter is like!
So, just as a quick start, as I don't have much time right now, I have been in Madison for a whole week and a day! Whew!! Still seems like a vacation since I am unemployed, and surreal that I am actually here for good, but I am so glad I came! It is cool and crisp and colorful. Perfect fall weather. :) I am on the hunt for jobs and am hopeful I will find something soon. I do NOT, I repeat, do NOT, like being unemployed. I am the kind of gal who needs to have purpose, goals, and something to doooooo. I am not good at being lazy. (-_-) This has been a very odd experience being unemployed like this, but it will make me appreciate my next job and money! Good thing my sweetheart is employed and willing to help out his broke lady. I will repay him someday.
Well, I must bid you adieu, and get out of here. I have a date with a very special man.
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