Today started off roughly. Woke up still tired, dropped my phone and shattered the screen, and was reminded again that I have no money and no job yet. So I have been living the life of a bum... asking, humbly, for help from others because without a job, I can't help myself just yet. And as the day went on, I just got more and more down.
Until I decided not to let this get me down. And I reminded myself why I did this in the first place. And I compiled a list of things I am thankful for.
* Friends that are willing to help me
* Family that loves me
* A wonderful sweet man that I know and is willing to put up with a bum of a girlfriend
* An education so I can find a job, eventually
The list was very long and some really silly things were on it, so I won't list the whole thing off. You can thank me later for not listing that I am thankful I have toes. Desperate days call on desperate reasons to be thankful!
Then I stumbled upon a blog http://www.allisonvesterfelt.com/ and an article on huffinton post http://www.huffingtonpost.com/allison-vesterfelt-/this-is-what-it-looks-lik_b_4150611.html?1382551286&ncid=edlinkusaolp00000009 (sorry I don't know how to post just titles yet... working on it!)
It reminded me that following dreams isn't always pretty roses and happy times. I have been on the other side and observed how someone else's life seems so awesome and they are doing all these cool things with their lives, yet very rarely do you see the other side to it: the jobless days, the eating ramen noodles every night because you can't afford anything else, the needing to ask for help.
But I know why I did this: to follow my own dreams of moving north, being with Kevin, changing myelf and my career, and enjoying my life. Sure, it's not easy, but by god it sure is worth it. =)
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